Taking any step, but what step to take.

Well this is the first step for me and an immediate thought on my mind is one I will use to kick off this blog.

Actually the first thought is, "who cares what you have to say anyway", but I will attempt to side step that for the present moment.

One of the tricky steps for me in anything is, "where do I start?"
I get the picture of what I would like to create in my life and I juggle the doubts (I should just drop those balls) of it ever happening - probably like most of us. But really where do I start so I am making the right action or going in the right direction?
In the statement above is, for me, the beginning to the answer. I have found this in some of the paintings I have started (completed some) where I have struggled the most. I have and will continue to apply it in my life too, because more and more when I am really present to what is going on around me I see that there is absolutely no differentiation between art and life (NONE).
Back to the statement, "...the right action" or ... the right direction"

When I get so confused about doing what is right my actions are controlled, non expressive and cautious or unsure. Chances are I will have it all thought out and recreated in my head to the point were the execution is uninspired and not worth seeing brought into existence.

I have been around much of the newer (although it has been around for ever just packaged differently) way of thinking concerning having what you want in your life, visualize-feel-expect, be-do-have principles, you know "the secret" that was so well kept we all forgot about it. Much of the information is good and has caused renewed thought in my life, but most of it is just over marketed hyped in order to sell a book, workshop or DVD's in order to fulfill their (purveyor of the message) dreams of a life they want and the intention and/or the message has little or nothing to do with actually forwarding the universal communication of the planet or helping you to connect with the unique voice or expression you are in the world.

Anyway back on track, where do I start? The second I have a thought or inspiration for a painting that is followed by a fear, doubt, disempowering thought - that is the action I start on and it never is a a study in futility because it is a practice of believing in myself at the very least and an adventure into the unkown with an expressive out come (experiencing real life) as the desired outcome and a piece of work that is me in the moment.